Do you have a Nancy by your side as you play chess with death?

You have serious health issues. On first assessment, the doctor gives you less than 100 days to live. More than 20 surgeries and 10,000 days later, who do you thank for letting you be you, not just alive? Yes, your own attitude matters. Then there is your doctor, the medical team, friends, and close family. If you are very lucky, you will also be grateful you had Nancy on your side.

If you have seen the movie, I want to talk and read the books by Arjun Sen, you will know who Nancy is (was, sadly). I had watched the movie before I read his books Raising a Father followed by Unquit Forever: Keep yourself in the game. The latter (the title of which sums up Arjun’s attitude towards life despite a prolonged standoff with death) told me more about Nancy.
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When Arjun met Nurse Nancy for the first time at the hospital, “I heard her scream, ‘Arjuuuun’ way before I saw her.” Then, she “pulled me into a bear hug.”

Arjun's first meeting with Nancy. Arjun played by Abhishek Bachchan and Nancy by Kristin Goddard. From the movie “I want to talk”.

Then Nancy asked him a question. Did Arjun think of himself as friend and family? She explained: “You wake up with yourself, you are with yourself all day, and you go to bed with yourself. You are your best friend and companion. There is no hiding from that.”

“Arjun, in your journey of living your life, you have to learn to trust me now. I know it takes time to build trust, but in our case, just force yourself to start with 100% trust and then see how I live up to that.” Those are Nancy’s words as quoted in Arjun’s book. She asked Arjun to let her into his life so that she could help him.

Once Arjun wondered how she managed to connect so deeply with every patient. Nancy replied: “You didn’t come in as a patient. You came in as a human being. Don’t you deserve love, kindness and attention? That’s what I do. I fall in love with every patient every time. Unless you love the person, you cannot care. I have heard others say that one has to love what they do. That does not work for me. How can I love my work? I love people and every patient that walks into my life. I fall in love with them. They deserve the love.”

There was a time when Arjun, the consummate marketing man, was considering suicide. Nancy happened to call when he was driving and sensed what he was planning. She said, “Arjun, hear me out clearly. You are a survivor, not a quitter. Your mind will not let you quit. Whatever you are planning, you could fail in it. Do you know what will happen next? You, the branding man, will get defined as the person who failed both in life and death. Is that how you want to be known?” That prompted Arjun to take a U-turn in life and convert the bothersome headwinds into positive tailwinds.

Then, one day, Arjun got the news that Nancy was no more. She had taken her own life. Why? Her husband told Arjun: “Nobody knows why it happened. She finished her shift and left quietly. Her phone was turned off. I guess everyone had Nancy. You, all her other patients, doctors, her friends, and us, her family. But Nancy did not feel she had anyone. She must have been hurting badly, suffering all alone.”

This is how Arjun sums up his connection with Nancy in his book: “She walked into my life, ready to rescue me. But she never made me feel rescued. She made me feel like I was still me, but a better version. Unfortunately, our connection was only about me. She knew everything about me and how to help me get back in life, not just live but run in life. I wish at least one more time I was standing in front of her, with open arms and calling her name, ‘Naannnncyyyyyyyy!!!!’ and inviting her into a big hug.”

Even if you have seen the movie, do read Arjun Sen’s book, Unquit Forever: Keep yourself in the game. It will take you deeper into his life, and the lives of those who made his life a marathon he successfully started and finished—including Nancy. 

Are you fortunate enough to know a Nancy who loves the people under her care beyond the clock and duty? And if you do, do you really, really know her to encourage her to live on, love on?

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Text based on the book, Unquit Forever: Keep yourself in the game, written by Arjun Sen and published by Evincepub Publishing, Kindle Edition.
Image from the movie I want to talk, directed by Shoojit Sircar, on Prime Video.

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